Isn't odd how shedding a little light on something makes all the difference in the world? I find it amazing when I walk the dogs in the morning and it's still dark outside how creepy and scary the people seem on the corner of Dallas and Main. Yet as I walk by I hear a pleasant voice wish me good morning. The dark can make anything seem unsafe and unfriendly. I realize you have to be safe and be on guard, this is a city with all walks of life. But it's the realization of how much of that fear is generated by me. During the day I can walk by that same corner in the bright sunlight and I don't have half the thoughts about my safety as I do when the sun is set.
As I walk in the dark I am so aware of the tricks I play on myself. My awareness of how much my mind plays games on me is heighten and I can see how I can hold myself back. It makes me realize that as I go about my day I am not fortunate enough to have something as simple as the darkness to make me notice I am generating the fears I have throughout the day. I am not keenly aware that the negative fearful thoughts I am having are self induced. As I walk through my day my sense of self heightened awareness seems to decrease and I am not as sensitive as to what I can do to myself.
Today I will continue through my day grateful as I can be. I will be more cognizant of what I can do for myself in a positive way and aware of how destructive crippling thoughts can be if I don't pay attention to what I tell myself.
Location:Fannin St,Houston,United States
Well, that's NOT a very safe corner to be hanging out at. Next time, I'll try not to end my sentence with a preposition.
ReplyDeleteI used to feel a bit of anxiety when we first moved to the island because it is so dark at night. Not any lights except for those from the house. I would imagine the boogyman jumping from behind a building. But now I feel so comfortable with the night.
ReplyDeleteI can completely relate. I find that reality is never as bad as what I build it up to be
ReplyDeleteThe difference between helpful fear, which keeps us safe, and unhelpful fear, which just keeps us stuck in our old habits of thought and feeling.
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