Saturday, May 8, 2010

May 8, 2010

Today I am Grateful for:

Trying to Remove The Bondages of Self. Everyday I have to take a good hard look at this. Everyday I have issues about me that I have to continue to try and let go of. Even on my best day I am still shackled to myself and it isn't pleasant. Sometimes the pain is minimal and hardly noticeable, but it is still there. Other days it's as if the shackles are cutting me. It is amazing what I am willing to put myself through.

Everyday I am learning to let whatever issues I have coexist with me. I am learning not to dwell on them and stop looking inward and to focuse out side of me. I am learning that these are experiences I am to have in my life to move me down the path of strength to a place I am trying to get to.

By getting out of me and helping others either through AA or through my family and friends or a stranger that comes into my life, I try to focus on them before me. This is where it's difficult, because I want to make everything about me. But the healing does come when I am able to let go and not be the center of the universe.

I am eternally Grateful that I learned this through recovery or I may not have learned it at all.


  1. Your HP will be glad to assist in removing those bondages.

  2. Lovely lessons, thank you for sharing them with me to remind me

  3. Thanks for the reminder. Everytime I forget, I get a pretty stark lesson that I've got to keep practicing the basics of my program.

  4. I am struggling with how to deal with a friend who is nothing short of extremely self-centered. I am tired of the irritability, the passive-aggressive stuff, and the entire "dry" drunk shit. I have compassion but have to admit that at times it is worn thin. Sorry to go off on this but reading about selfishness and shifting the focus to work with others reminded me of the situation.