May 1, 2010

Today I am Grateful for:

Realizing. As I travel down the path of my life I'm realizing that I am evolving. I never stopped to look at the issues I am going through no matter how big or small they are as evolutionary steps for me. They are forming and creating my own personal universe that is all part of why I am here.

I realize that I tend to focus on the feelings of what I am going through versus why I am having those experiences and what I can/am learning from them. At the end of the day, I know that I am learning to become a better me. I am learning my strengths and weaknesses no matter how great or painful they are to me. I am learning that there is life after my painful feelings. I'm learning that if I would just let up on myself a little bit and realize that I am evolving for the better. I am fortunate to realize that I am aware that I am evolving and moving down a path. I am so Grateful to be aware of that. There are so many people who just go through life and don't even stop to think about life, where they are, what they are doing, how they are treating people, what they are experiencing. They are asleep at the wheel so to speak.

I'm learning that there isn't a total state of serenity all the time. If there was it would lose it's euphoric state. Everything would be the same all the time. It is not possible, I would stop appreciating it because I couldn't see the differences. The Ying and the Yang of life are what let me appreciate serenity.

I am very Grateful today to have had the experiences I am having lately, as painful as they are to me personally. I am Grateful that I am a recovering drug addict and alcoholic that has found a God of my understanding to enrich my life. I am realizing that there is purpose to my life. I am Grateful to realize that my life is a 1,000 times better than it was 20 months ago.