February 22, 2010

Today I am Grateful for:

18 Months of Sobriety, yesterday. I was so caught up in my getting my business going I nearly forgot what I need to take time to think about. I am grateful on a daily basis for my sobriety. I texted my sponsor and told him I wasn't going to the meeting that I normally go to on Sunday morning and he wrote back "Happy 18 months!" I nearly fell over because I forgot. I'm grateful for him reminding me and that I live 3 blocks from the center that I was able to make it. It was 9:13 am and the meeting started at 9:30 am. It would not have been the same to pick up my 18 month chip with any other group of people other than the drunks and addicts I fellowship with.

Prayer. Yesterday's meeting was about prayer in our lives and how it works for each of us. I am so fortunate that I found communication with a God of my understanding which I write in my blog often. The first thing I do is pray and meditate while my coffee is brewing. But I also write to my higher power. Originally, it started off as morning writing to expand on my creativity, which it does. However, I start each writing with Dear God, Universe or whatever it feels like that day. Through writing I feel my focus is more connected to my higher power because I am doing something tangible. I'm a tactile person and that makes it a stronger connection for me.

Follow through. Something that I would sneak away from before. Through my sobriety I have been finding that I follow through with what I say I am going to do. The funny part, I don't even think twice about not doing something I would originally be thinking about how I can get out of it, when I said I was going to do it in the first place.

Loving me. I am who I am. I am just who I am suppose to be. I love who I am, something I was never able to say before. Whatever I am here to do, I am enjoying the journey and have no regrets for the my life, past, present or future.

Now, I don't normally do this, but Annie, gave me an award and I want to honor it. I am suppose to write 7 facts about me, so here goes.

1. My first language was German until I was 4.

2. I liked to clean at a very early age.

3. I only see with one eye. The other works, but my brain turns it off.

4. I love being creative, but my interests change with the hour.

5. I have always only slept 4 or 5 hours a night.

6. The day I was born, there was a plane crash in Mexico killing 26 people.

7. I was named after Gary Cooper

I'm Giving this award to:

Dave Todd Kim