"What if..." I am Grateful for today's refection from "A Day A Time." I can catch myself saying to myself, "What if I don't make it?" "What if I run out of money?" "What if something major happens in my life?" Thankfully, because of the program, I can stop myself and say "Wait a minute, one day at a time." I can project myself into a frenzy if I don't make myself realize that it is this very moment I am living in, not any further ahead. I have to remind myself of this on a daily basis.
Spring. I dropped my son off at school yesterday and on my way home I had the sun roof open and I could smell the fresh cut grass, the morning birds were singing there quiet morning song. It brought me that feeling of everything is okay. I love those moments of peaceful bliss.
Determination. I am Grateful to keep going. I don't know what the hell I am doing, but I am determined to do it and figure it out alone the way.
Gratification. I am Grateful for the long days of working hard. I am enjoying starting my day early and ending it late in the evening. Sometimes I don't feel like I have accomplished as much as I wanted to in the day. But the idea that I am doing it for myself, sober and happy makes all the difference in the world.
Thanks for some reminders.
ReplyDeleteI am sooooo waiting for the smell of freshly mown grass. It is 30 degrees and we are expecting flurries. I'll just borrow your experience until we get the real thing!
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I am hearing the spring peepers. They are reminding me of spring's promise. But then every day holds promises.
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