"What if..." I am Grateful for today's refection from "A Day A Time." I can catch myself saying to myself, "What if I don't make it?" "What if I run out of money?" "What if something major happens in my life?" Thankfully, because of the program, I can stop myself and say "Wait a minute, one day at a time." I can project myself into a frenzy if I don't make myself realize that it is this very moment I am living in, not any further ahead. I have to remind myself of this on a daily basis.
Spring. I dropped my son off at school yesterday and on my way home I had the sun roof open and I could smell the fresh cut grass, the morning birds were singing there quiet morning song. It brought me that feeling of everything is okay. I love those moments of peaceful bliss.
Determination. I am Grateful to keep going. I don't know what the hell I am doing, but I am determined to do it and figure it out alone the way.
Gratification. I am Grateful for the long days of working hard. I am enjoying starting my day early and ending it late in the evening. Sometimes I don't feel like I have accomplished as much as I wanted to in the day. But the idea that I am doing it for myself, sober and happy makes all the difference in the world.