Today I am Grateful for:
Acceptance. For me it's about who I was, what it was like and how I am now. To accept that life can be so different if I am just willing to change. Of course, I didn't see back then what I could see now. Typical of anything you can't see it sometimes when your smack in the middle of something. Not only did I accept that I had to give up old habits that were not healthy for me, I had to accept that I had to change actions, ideas, my views and everything about me to get where I am today. I didn't loose myself and become someone I wasn't. It's more like I found the person I was meant to be, the being that I was born with.
My 9 year old son Drew. He never ceases to amaze me. We went to see the movie Avatar yesterday afternoon. During one of the heightened scenes near the end of the movie a line was said and he leans over to me and said "Wow, it sounds just like Dr. Martin Luther King." My mouth just dropped. He was seeing and hearing in the movie, which does have so many undertones a message. To me it was very moving that he could connect a message from Dr. King to a movie.
My Spirituality. My ability to see it engulf me, especially in the last few weeks with all the changes going on. I can actually see "What God does for me what I can't do for myself."
One more week. I have one week left working at my current job. I have that scary feeling in the pit of my stomach, but, it's okay. It's just the feeling of unknown. I have more than 25 years of a routine that will no longer be there. Friday will be the last time I have to pull into a parking garage and fight to find a spot. One last time to take an elevator, an escalator and two more elevators to get to my office. No more routines that I grew to dislike and some of the routines working with the people I will miss. I am so grateful I had such a long run at a job I learned so much from.
Incredible what we begin to see when our eyes are really opened.
ReplyDeleteI really liked how you said you weren't changing but getting back to who you really were. I agree. When I let my HP work without my insistance that I could do better, it all works out so much better..and I am serene. Yep--and my serenity is a daily gift if I continue to work what works. Awesome post and I have a son named Andrew too. Wasn't Avatar awesome?
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Maybe no more elevators, but a lot of steps.
ReplyDeleteAcceptance! What a concept!!
ReplyDeleteI will be leaving my job of 31 years in 4 months. I don't really want to call it retirement. It will be more like a respite from a schedule and a chance to turn the page to open a new chapter. Good luck as you move on.
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